Friday, December 26, 2014

This Path






 


I have been on a soul's journey. And what a pretentious a phrase, right? My journey started in, well, it started years ago, but this past September was when I went from walking around like a normal person to being upside down, totally thrown off the grid, and not knowing at all what to do about it. To be honest, I don't think this is a 'just me' thing. The universe is working through all of us, thinning the chaff, sorting out the enlightened and the unwilling, and all I can say is, it's a bit tiring. I stopped writing, stopped watching my favorite shows, and basically, just stopped everything that was once familiar and routine.

About a week ago I had the chance to talk to a very smart, very talented woman—who also just happens to be an intuitive. I was desperate for clarity and peace of mind. The first thing she said to me was: "You are done paying off your father's karmic debt, and now you are free. All that bad luck is over now. You're free." We'd barely even said hello. My father built up some heavy, bad karma in his lifetime; in his car, at work, at home . . .  So when she said that, I didn't need to ask any questions, I knew. Yes, my father's debt. Uh-huh.

Funny, because the topic of karma has been on my mind a lot lately. While driving to the bookstore a while back, I explained to my daughter how we were all racking up a bank account of bad karma with seemingly innocent things like cutting someone off on the road, speeding up to a bumper, not using the flicker, not allowing another person into our lane. Car karma. Then there's line karma, phone karma, and applicable for my daughter, recess karma. Basically if you are always right, and someone else is always wrong, you're racking up the points. If you troll people online, you're racking up the points. If you feel like someone always owes you something, or that you are what you wear, or where you live, or how you look, you're racking up the points. "And I don't want you to inherit mine," I said. "That's why I have been working so hard—so you don't have to deal with it."

I heard once that if you haven't made amends for the less desirable actions in your life by the time you're fifty, then they'll probably never be fixed in time. You'll lose. Life lessons wasted. Which leaves it up to your kids. And that just isn't fair.

And you know what else? Bad karma or not, I asked for this journey. This pain. This weight. That's another thing we must do—we have to be accountable for the events of our life. Good or bad. I cried out to the universe back in September, and man, did it ever answer. It stripped me of complacency and familiarity. It asked me to dig deep and bare my heart. I didn't want to. I resisted. Baring my heart is like the most awkward, difficult thing anyone could ever ask me to do. My whole life I've had to hide: my feelings, my expressions, my heart. But . . . are diamonds found perfectly chiseled and polished? No. Are they Jared Jewelry quality the second the leave the cave? No. They are dug out of rough stone and carried and jostled and examined and sometimes rejected. The diamond you see on someone's pretty little finger literally and figuratively 'went through the wringer.' So let this be known: be careful what you ask for, because you will receive it. The universe will respond. It wants you to be a diamond, it wants it real bad, but you have to be willing to take the challenge and accept all responsibility for what lies ahead. And, believe me, the road is long and paved with potholes.

And yes sometimes, diamonds.







So, that's my little story about karma. I pulled two cards from the beautiful Earth Magic Oracle cards which I was lucky enough to buy last week with some surprise Christmas money. The artwork is spectacular and the energy they embody is even better. I really love them. Okay, so I pulled Ancestors and Rainbow, and how appropriate is it that I pulled  the Ancestors card!!! The message is that we are intricately connected to our ancestors, not only with our physical traits, but with the earth around us they once inhabited. We are being reminded to take stock of our connection to the past and what it can teach us, right here, today. But more than anything we are being reminded that we are not alone. Our ancestors look over us (bad karma or not!) and wish to offer their help and guidance through our darkest nights and deepest troubles. I think that's beautiful. Early November I was on a hike with my kids and we ended up at a high point in the forest we'd never been before, and I had this crystal clear, prickly moment of being connected with the 'other side.' My heart told me that my grandfather and grandmother were around and that I was well-loved and being guided through a 'dark night of the soul.' It was a healing sensation, like, all that had come before was now washed away and my journey to the highest point would now be easier. I was loved and the weight of my troubles lessened.

Rainbow teaches us that there is beauty after the storm, and also that if we take the time to look back, great revelations might come to us, as well as acceptance that our journey was one of brilliance and great insight, not fear and destruction.

I thank you for taking the time to visit and read my blog, and I wish you the most beautiful Holiday Season. Peace & Blessings to you!


Monday, December 1, 2014

An Introduction

As you can see, I've moved anything that has to do with tarot onto a new blog and so, once again, bear with me as I work this whole thing out. First and foremost I am a beginner, so mistakes will happen! But hopefully this blog will provide guidance and outweigh any bumps that might occur on the road to perfection (as if such a thing really existed!). I also hope to learn more about astrology so I can mix everything together and be of more use to anyone who might need it!

The good news is I am looking to fine tune my craft, so if you'd like a free tarot reading, go ahead and introduce yourself in the comment section below, and I'll do my best to accommodate. Thank you and many blessings!