Why good people do bad things

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I was asking the Universe a lot of questions last week about why some people get hurt and others do the hurting, and this is the response that came to me. Mind you, I don't hear Spirit or get big visions, I receive guided intuition and feel in my heart if it's right nor not. That's how I channel. It's still a learning process, but over this last year I have learned to listen and trust what comes through. What I was told was that the reason why some people hurt others, especially those they seemingly love and care about, is because they are not listening to their inner guidance, Spirit, etc. and are currently at a place where they are ego driven—which means they live off of fears, anger, base needs, wants, selfishness. It doesn't mean they're bad, it means they are in an infant stage of spiritual development and can't, and don't want to, change just yet. They could read the Bible all day, every day, but because they cling to the ego they're not going to feel how truly devastating some of their behavior is. When they hurt another person, it's a sickness. They are stuck in a dark place and can't feel because they are literally unwell in so many ways, but can't see it because they think it's normal.

Let's say you have a mother who won't allow her daughter to grow up. She won't buy her nice clothes, won't let her get her hair done, ears pierced, won't let her wear makeup or go out on any dates, and the daughter is old enough to do all of these things. The mother is being selfish, and to be honest, mean. She's stopping the girl's growth and free will because of what SHE wants, not what the daughter wants. If she steps back and directs things with a more heart-centered viewpoint, really listens to her daughter, she'll trust that all will be well by letting the girl make her own choices---something we all must do as we grow up and become adults. She's stuck in a place of fear because maybe when she was young she acted wild and got in trouble, or maybe she was never allowed to do anything and resents the fact. But still we ask, why. Why can't the mother know that she's being unreasonable? Why can't some people feel this inside of themselves? The answer is, they're not ready. Consider yourself lucky to be one of those with compassion and sensitivity. Send out light and love to those who aren't. Eventually they will develop these skills (we all do) through loss or change. But for now, they are incompetent and have no skills to understand.

Using another example, let's say you have a husband who won't let his wife go, even if she's told him that it's over and that she wants a divorce. He spies, manipulates, uses control tactics to keep her around--to the point where she could never love him again because he's violated her personal space so much and cut off her off from the world that she's now a victim. Even when she tells him how she feels, he's angry and says it's all her fault because she can't love him the way he wants. Why would he do that, knowing deep inside that it's driving her away, as opposed to making her want to come closer? The reason is he's afraid--so afraid that it's blinded him from feeling her inner turmoil and loss. He's afraid if he does try to understand her viewpoint, he'll lose a battle that he's set himself up to win--come hell or high water. And he must not lose. He'll lie, steal, spy, do anything to win. The truth is he won't win because you can't make someone love you. He has to find self-love, because when you learn how to love yourself, you can love and extend compassion to anyone and anything. Maybe when he was a child his mother left him for work. Maybe she HAD to work to pay the bills, but he took it as a personal attack. He's never gotten over that feeling of being abandoned, and now his wife has become his mother--he's angry and won't ever let it happen again. Once more, he has to learn to love himself. He has to understand that marriage and divorce can sometimes be part of the life cycle. It doesn't have to be personal, it just is. He can be whole and find happiness, but first he must let go of the toxic cycle, and move on so a healthier one can come to be. His wife will be healed, and he will be healed. They both win.

In any situation, the problem is we are all at different stages of spiritual/personal development. Some of us are beginners, some of us are experts. Send love out to all, and develop love inside of yourself, as a gift to yourself. That's where it starts. We are all conveyors of Divine Love. It starts with us, leaves us, heals us, heals each other, and comes back again. This doesn't mean you allow others to hurt you--that's actually the point: if you love yourself you won't allow others to hurt you, and you won't do the hurting.

I hope this helps. I'll try to write more as I'm inspired to do so. Thanks for reading and many blessings to you!

Peace.

The Road You're On

I've been looking back at the past months and thinking about what has changed and what hasn't changed, what I wish I would have changed, and what I wish I hadn't changed. Mostly I'm of the sect that if it happened, it was meant to, even if the results were less than enjoyable. But still, I can't get over the fact that I could have done more, worked harder, played my cards differently, and just generally have been more of a master of my circumstance. And yet, if I'm breathing and thinking and in good health, all must have not be that bad.

Last year was one of the most difficult times of my life, and honestly I don't know I got through it. It's still not easy, but what I'm grateful for is the fact that I did get through it and with a massive amount of spiritual knowledge as a result. Twelve months ago I was a baby compared to what I am now. I learned to meditate, to connect with the energy of the spiritual realm and use it for healing. That's some major stuff! One of the biggest things was the understanding that if I can connect with a divine energy source, then life is limitless. That same energy can be used for physical healing and manifestation of real life goals.

But you know what the downside to learning all of this is? You lose friends. You lose family. People  start to think you're looney and they drop away like flies. The thing is, I would have never gone down a spiritual path if things had been all peaches and honey. It was like, sink or swim, and I chose to swim. We're so used to people going on any drug they can find to alleviate and cope with life's many issues, but what we're not used to is someone saying, I meditated and came out with a clearer mind. I cried and was shown love. I prayed and gave up my ego and found out that I had all the joy of the universe right there waiting for me. We almost want each other to suffer and fall and be trampled upon and turn into roadkill and then write a book about it and say, "Don't do what I just did." We'd rather see that, than somebody talking about hooey spiritual stuff. There comes a time when you have to be brave and let it all drop away, all those expectations, all those preset limitations of what should be and what shouldn't be, and just do what you know is right. I mean, hell, my mother gave me a bottle of Vitamin D pills for Christmas and hinted I was crazy because I read tarot. But I didn't retaliate. That's not what I want for her or for me.

You have to go within. Sometimes the outside world doesn't get it. They never will get it. The path that you're on, the road you've traveled, the troubles you've encountered and fought and faced, no one else but you will ever understand. So go within, seek the blessings of the universe, and know that I'm doing the same.

The oracle card I pulled for today is another one from the beautiful Earth Magic Oracle deck by Steven D. Farmer. I love, love this deck and use it daily to heal and to gain wisdom. It's just a wonderful set of cards. What I pulled after a good shuffle was—Meadow. And what Meadow wants to remind us of is to be vulnerable. One of the hardest things to do. If someone hurts you, a natural reaction is to be tougher so that the next strike will have less of a sting. But in reality, your skin can only get so hardened before it begins to crack--and then all that tender flesh is exposed. It's actually much braver to remain vulnerable to others' attacks. An egg yolk is kept safe inside a delicate shell. The shell is hard, but sufficiently protective. If it was too thick, no one would ever be able to make an omelet or a souffle or a chiffon cake, right? So, have a shell, but not too thick. Remain open to hurt, but with the knowledge that you are sufficiently protected by the universe.

Blessings to you, and Peace! Thanks for reading.